because thanksgiving is a two day holiday

goodbye car.
you were always good to me.
(just to be clear, i was not even in the car when this happened, and it is not in anyway my fault.)

and it begins

When i was a little girl my aunt ruth made me swear to her that i would go to Utah State when i grew up. being foolish and uneducated, i promised her i would.
as i grew, i learned what Utah State actually was.
a college.
a wonderful college that i know despretly want to attend.
i'm not sure if it's because of the small girls promise, but it is the place i want to go.
so badly.
i want to start that chapter of my life.
i want to learn about the human body, and work in a hospital.
i want to cram for tests on medical terminology, and pace around my room with my roomates quizing my on flash cards.
i want to eat nasty cafiteria food that will make me want to throw up.
i want to be in my second favorite city in the united states.
the good news is, i'm on my way to getting in.
i got a 27 on my ACT which is what i needed to make it into Utah State.
i have a 3.94 grade point average.
if i could skip my senior year, i would.
i'm so excited for college.
seeing my sister and how much college has helped her grow has made me desprate for the next two years to fly by.
if only amberly could take me back home with her.
just for a taste.
Utah State better start making room for me now, because i'm coming.
oh, i'm coming.

I have no words that are capable of describing this night. Thank you harry potter.

One hour to go, and one bucket of popcorn gone.

Harry Potter

today
its the day i've been waiting for all summer.
good news.
there are already people lined up and waiting.
yes.
and then tomorrow is the best day of the world.
my lover is coming home.
we are married.
its not gross.
put out those dirty thoughts.

i'm not really sure what to say right now.
my emotions are completely drained.
i haven't cried that hard in a long time.
i've never cried in front of my friends.
except lindsey.
i'm just glad that heavenly father has sent me wonderful people to be around, and i'm thankful that he heard and answered my prayer. i'm grateful he sent me the perfect show tune saturday night, and i'm thankful he blessed me with happiness today. i know that heavenly father is looking out for me, and i'm not sure why that had to happen yesterday, but i know that he sent it for a reason, and i know he never abandoned me. i love him so much, and i am thankful for the atonement and for the opporunity i had to be forgiven of my sins. i know that heavenly father loves me, and i am trying as hard as i can to live my life in a way he can be proud. i'm thankful for all of the testimony building moments i've had lately, and i'm so grateful to have wonderful examples around me.

more on that later.

isn't it interesting how just when you need it most, our dear heavenly father will send us that little inspiration that keeps us pushing.
thank you to lacey for writting me notes that fill me with joy and hope.
thank you to kendall for texting me random uplifting texts.
thank you to lindsey for getting me to the temple were i had amazing things happen.
also, a thank you to lindsey for introduceing me to a blog that lifted my spirits, even though i never would have guessed.
thank you to amberly who is the greatest example of anyone i've ever meet. if you want to make it to the celestial kingdom, just do whatever amberlys doing. plus i made a count down to count down when seh gets home. i love her that much.
thank you to nate for giving me things, such as free shirts and viking braclets.
thank you to whoever invented "How i Meet your mother" i haven't laughed so hard since i watched all the episodes of "Friends"
thank you to my mommy who provides me withh all the episodes of "Friends" "How i Meet Your Mother" "Gimore Girls," and is starting to add to our collection of "Friday Night Lights" and "Smallville"
thank you to stacey squires who busts my butt in aerobics. i will miss that class.
thank you to everyone who is planning sadies for me. i'm only incharge of dinner and that is easy. i'm a natural deligator.
thank you to all of my family. all of you are such great examples to me. i'm grateful for the things you do for me, and for all of the ways you bless my life.
i love you all.