love cammie.

Dear summer,
how i miss your wonderful summeresness.
i miss the late nights that i spent talking on haleys grass about nothing.
i miss eating popsicles and not having to wear shoes.
i miss not having to have a scheduale,
and not having to wear makeup, or do my hair.
i miss the wonderful freedom of nothingness you granted me with.
i will see you next year,
and come sooner,
love cammie.


Dear falll, (and included, school.)
for august 25th i wrote on my calender, 'The day of death. (school starts.)'
this isn't even an exsateragtion.
school brings nothing but the horrible need to dress yourself in clothes you don't even like because others have deemed them suitable.
but school, this year i'm deeming something suitable.
every day i am wearing  a t-shirt.
i don't care if you think they look grungy.
and also, please school, if you could be so kind, please go by fast.
i would love to have my junior year under my belt as soon as possible.
no more of the month long week things.
i want to be suprised that its friday.
that would be wonderful.
love cammie.

Dear kendall.
hi.
i miss you.
it seems like we have no classes together this year.
and the one we do have is mared by the presence of that someone that you have grown abnormaly close to. don't get me wrong i love that person, but sometimes our attidutes clash. and i find it hard to be around her. and when you are with her, i don't really want to talk to you very much. and i want to tell you but haley says that it would cause unnessicary drama, but i don't think it would be like that.
i think you would take it very stoikly. because you always told me to be honest with you. and this is something that has been bugging me.
also, i miss you as a venting pal.
haley is NOT a good person to vent too, because she always says that it will be okay if we just leave it alone.
all i need is for someone to say that they agree with me.
but, its hard to vent to your venting pal when they're the one you need to vent about.
its awful.
i might tell you.
love cammie.

Dear mommy.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
i love you so much.
i wish that i could celebrate you everyday.
i wish i could write in the clouds how much i love you.
i wish i could cook all the meals, and clean all the dishes, but i don't want to.
i wish i could tell you in words how much you mean to me.
i'm so grateful to everything you do for me.
i love you.
love cammie.

Dear cammie.
just keep pushing.
it will be okay.
someday you will look back on these days and think about how much they helped you grow.
even if today didn't seem like one of them.
love cammie.